Wen's blog~

2011-12-30T09:46:00.000+08:00

一年就这样又要过去了
回头看看，还真留下许多回忆啊!
18岁也可以讲多姿多彩啊
哈哈

喝茶到凌晨3点~

唱K唱到12点~

和朋友们一起庆祝生日，还玩cream~

和朋友们去 PORT DICKSON~

考试时，和朋友们一起努力读书，一起奋斗~

去KUALA SELANGOR 庆祝朋友生日，吃海鲜~

去OVERTIME 喝酒，然后回家·second round
还喝到醉了，仪态丢了 T.T ~

这一些一些都是珍贵的回忆啊。。

珍贵的是和你们一起过

珍贵的是有你们在为它上色

珍贵的是认识了你们

老土地来一句
”人生得一自知死而无憾“

但我还是死而有憾啦

因为还没享受够

享受不够和你们一起的时光

哈哈

和2011说再见了

一起欢迎2012 的到来吧

2011-12-17T04:45:00.001+08:00

it's 4.30 in the morning now!

wow~ have lots of fun tonight

meeting up with secondary friends~

the heng dai-sssss

and ji mui-sssss

hahaha~ and celebrated pris and pei2 birthday..

congratulate to both of u..

18th dy!!

and i guess wiping cream on birthday ppl face has already become a tradition in our gang~ lol!!

but still,every time,every one also will get it~ lol!

and normally the one got in straight in the face and with STYLE!

is li wey.. hahaha!

part 3

2011-12-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

To the dearest Chelsea Chan Pui Yee aka MONKEY

this is the post specially dedicated to u~

sorry for the a bit bit bit late which i dragged for almost half a year?

LOL!!

jeng! jeng! jeng! jeng!

this is my MONKEY friend!!

a very close friend of mine

knew her for 5 years?

wow! time flies~

still remember how we knew each others?

hahaha! across the road~ lol!

there are many precious memories with this friendship

thanks for being there when i need u

u made me believe that between a boy and girl

there are pure friendship

and i treasure this friendship very very much! =D

what else should i write?

haha.. there are a lot but i don't think i can write it all out

cause this would make the post superb LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG

just wanna let u know that no matter what happen

u r still my BFF =D

oh ya,pls wait patiently for ur BANANA ya MONKEY!! xPPPP

2011-12-11T13:24:00.000+08:00

my mom,bro and sis are back~

15 days trip to Philippine to visit my aunt

i realise i'm kinda miss them

but i'm kinda miss my freedom as well

lol! can't go anywhere i wish and back any time i like which i did for the 15 days

mom bought some shirt and pants for me

kinda nice

but i love the watch which my grandmom bought for me

it's neither very nice nor expensive but I LOVE IT!

hahaha

one more funny thing!!

grandmom told me that my bro threw a tantrum when shopping with mom

because my mom don't allow him to buy something

guess what~

HE WANTED TO BUY HIGH HEELS!!

WTF!!

and now he is wearing mom's high heels walking around at home = = !!

i'm crazy soon... outside keep on kik kok kik kok

!@#$%@#$&*

ny bro very happy with the present i bought him

but more happy with the present my dad bought him

IPAD 2~

walau!! envy dao~

nvm,i can always play it.. hahaha

2011-11-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

1 more paper to go!! =D
math paper 1!!
hopefully can score!

so far kinda worry bout exam

law paper~ not enough time..

content seems like pretty little

and kinda worry for not answering the question

econs paper~

paper 2 was quite hard

not sure whether the point i answered is the point they want @@

paper 1 (which is today)

was HARD!!

but luckily got 1/3 was past year

but still got 1/3 are those hardcore question

keep bringing ppl turn and turn and turn

the question twisted and twist again and again

!#$%^*&#^%&%$!

then math~ i think i confirm lost 2 to 5 marks..
cause i left out one step!!

only one step!!

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then others not confirm correct some more

one word : WORRY!!

hopefully next thursday paper (math paper 1 )

can score!

god pls bless me!!!!!

New Chapter

2011-11-07T02:44:00.001+08:00

fuhh~ at last finish editing my blog

decide to change it since my life changes~

i'm single now ^^

happy? sad?

i don't know! hahaha

watched this!

it's a true life story!

it makes me remember some of my secondary school life memory

it's just that mine don't have girl in class

and no TFK in class

and no staying back at school to study

and no cutting botak

hahahaha

after watching this movie

i feel like going back to form 1!!!!

but this time going to mix school~ lol!!

the ending was kinda sad

i'm keep wondering

if that guy or girl be a bit more brave and start the conversation

i guess the ending will be totally different

but what to do..

that's what we call faith i guess

True love does not have happy ending

because it will not have an ending

2011-11-07T01:43:00.000+08:00

TAN SIN YEE!!
Happy 18th Birthday!!
finally u r 18th

dai gor lui dy! haha

hopefully i manage to give u a memorable celebration

hope u r happy with every things

hm..

so i guess both of us r single now

honestly,till now.. i din feel regret to confess to u on 5th of july

my 1st love gave to a person who are very kind,understanding and NAUGHTY!!

haha

had a lot of happy memories

well,let delete the bad one

and save the nice one

lets make our 1st love the memorable one ^^

when we were watching final destination 5!!

when celebrating out half year anniversary at Sunway Lagoon~

when i drive to kepong to find u for dinner~

when we go to the hungry camp lol!!

when we celebrating ur birthday~

when we study together for spm!

when u get SS while i'm driving

haha! looking back~
really have had kinda lots of funny and happy memory

16th of july

our 1st date

we were like normal friend

feel so awkward! hahaha..

it's also the 1st day i hold ur hand ^^

13th of august

my 1st kiss given to you~

hahaha..

16th of october

1st time sitting couple seat in cinema

nice bo? lol~

looking back the diary i wrote when we started

it's like full of happiness

but i stopped to continue it

u asked me why

now i tell u~

because i know u'll read it

and so,i'm like writing something for u to read

and not writing my own feeling

that's why i stopped on 16th of october

reading back the diary,i find it's sort of interesting

how our face got red.. how paiseh r we.. lol!

well,i think we should let all of these become memory..

let us become friend again

no no! is close friend! ^^

hope u happy always! =)

2011-10-29T19:27:00.000+08:00

it's 7.19 now

waiting for my dinner

listening songs

in a moody mood

don't know what to do

lots of study waiting to be done before mon

but yet feeling lazy to do

i start to hate home alone

the quietness

loneliness

emptiness

bored-ness

annoy me,A LOT!!

feeling bad now

something in my heart is expanding

can feel its pressure

it's going to burst

keep on finding way to release it

i guess i just cant stand see u suffering

but yet i don't feel like continuing

i'm sorry

it's my problem

now feeling like needing a listener

but yet i hate to explain

the feel is really complicated

i hate to explain it over and over again

because it's like REAL complicated = =!

and sometime really don't feel like troubling ppl with my problems

i'm a man!!

i should be tough!!!

ya.. i should!!

2011-10-28T09:09:00.001+08:00

maybe u r rite..

i'm trying to put this relation to an end

maybe i really don't love her enough

it's my problem... really..

not her's

sometime i just don't know how to express it out

sometime these kind of feelings

u experience it then u'll know

when i 1st started with her

she is really a happy girl

often may hear her laughter

but as time passes

then are more =( and more ='(

sometime due to some problem

sometime due to our character

i guess in other words,it means not suitable

i'm tired with all of these

mentally tired ~

i feel better to be friend back seriously

i feel heartache when see u cry

but i really hope to stop all of these

why must both ppl become couple?
why can't be a bit more mature and be friend
since the relation is not happy?
i don't hope until a stage that we hate each other then only wanna break
i hope our 1st love is memorable
sincerely,i wish u happy and find a better one

i believe in faith
if it's belongs to one's
no mattr how u push it away
it's still belong to one's
if it's not
no matter how u pull
it's still not belong to one's

honestly,u deserve better

hopefully we can still be friend

very good that type

2011-10-26T10:09:00.000+08:00

time to clear dust!!

yesterday went to peggy's open house for deepavali
lol! kinda fun actually

she invited her secondary school friends and some college friends
mana tahu itu kelly put aeroplane! = =!

so ends up i'm kinda paiseh there
cause beside yuki and peggy and sin yee

i know no one.. lol!

but not bad la.. kinda fun

and i lost RM7 T.T

nvm la~ 7 only ma..

well,my next paper is on 31st

two paper on 1 day

math and econs

plus econs is paper 2 omg!

really got to change back study mood immediately

yesterday when we were chatting in the car

u told me that if i feel we r not suitable

then u r ok that two of us become friend again

actually i can feel u r swallowing ur tears when u said that

honestly, me too..

i really don't know what to do

feel like not suitable but yet afraid to let go

contradicting!!!!

maybe we should let go and two of us become friend?

maybe we should continue and ignore the problems?

honestly,either way.. i hope we can be friend forever

one more thing is,i really don't hope u to be sad anymore

or suffering

don't u feel we r sort of in a suffocating situation in this relationship?

sorry to say that.. i'm

well,i guess let us to cool down for some time then only decide

i don't wish to make any regret decision..

2011-09-28T15:38:00.003+08:00

wow! at last safely arrive at home

today can consider as a LUCKY and UNLUCKY day

morning plan to go and find sy but dad used car UNLUCKY

but he back around 12 LUCKY

after meet up with her,then i go back

pass by a toll but i forgotten i just used up all my money for lunch in starbucks UNLUCKY

then car got a touch and go card LUCKY

who knows out of credit =.= UNLUCKY

stopped a car,a malay driver with his family to borrow some money LUCKY

the aunty seems wanted to give but his husband slowly,with a smile,drive away T.T UNLUCKY

then stopped a chinese uncle

he lend me his card,ask me to use it then give it back to him LUCKY

his card got around 140+ man!

and he so kind n lend it to me,i used rm1.50

i was super nervous that time cause my car stop at half way n i cant turn back UNLUCKY

after that i follow gps.. keep praying to god that there is no more toll

keep on worrying!! and i turned the wrong way UNLUCKY

who knows,the way i turned in helped me to avoid a toll!!! LUCKY

and lead me back to TS n from there the worry gone cause i know the way home...

and it has NO TOLL!!! LUCKY

then there is like super jam @@ UNLUCKY

due to boredom,i check my dad's car

i found 300 cents in my dad car

WTF?!?!?! all in 20 n 10 n one 50 cent

then i go maluri to check on my phone

i went to the COMSAT MOBILE COMMUNICATIONS

the ONLY place that i may fix my phone FOC cause it's still under warranty LUCKY

and when i go in to the shop,ask whether is it fixing phone place

his reaction like he is my boss ==! then only he tell me it's upstairs

so i go up and ask la

another action fellow

HELLO!!! i'm consumers okay ?!?!

so he asked me what happen and i told him my phone stop displaying when i push it up and pull it down again n he said it's most probably has problem with the ribbon

then i realise the phone passed 12 days from warranty period !@#$%^&* UNLUCKY

so i ask how much to fix..

that guy say 80 ^^ LUCKY

F.Y.I i'm in love with my AINO..

to date,no phone can compete with it in my heart <3

and now,i'm home~

hoping my phone can be fixed and it's only cost 80

cause i just spent 2500 for a new laptop.. pokai dy~

2011-09-27T04:25:00.004+08:00

well,lets put a little of my imagination into words

as what in the previous post

i will choose to go back to form 4

of course,with current memory

i will pay much more attention in studies instead of being so active

because if things go in a same way

Mr Kamal will lost my koko card from form 1 to 4

( i'm extremely frust bout this )

besides i will for ensure i go for the chess competition

because from there i will know a girl

which lead to knowing a bunch of good friends today

i will also straight away go to Martin for

bio , phy , eng and bm tuition

and i will aim all A+ in spm

which was an impossible grade to achieve for me

and i'm feeling so regret for thinking in that way

then i will also become a good boy

good boy in a way that think twice before action

not to do something when i'm not confirm what i'm feeling

and hurt ppl badly.. my fault~

and i will also maintain the friendship and make it forever

then i will also go to the prefect camp

cause from there i get to know DAI GA JIE!!

and i keep bullied by this girl since then

but i also teased her back

and i also will ensure that chun yew will remember her too

~form 5~

during basketball competition

will play hard for the quarter final

because we only 5 points during that match

,if things happen in a same way again

i will also treasure the time i spent with my secondary classmate and teachers

because i'm kinda miss it right now

however,in this year

i will still do my best to full fill a head prefect responsibilities

but i will not waste so much time on it any more

because i feel too little time was spent in studies

besides,i will also try not to quarrel with Pn Noriah that much

because i find it's wasting time to do so

but i'm still hate her very much

if possible,i don't make her my new part of memory

and and i wont give my koko card to Pn ...........

ahh~ i forgotten her name ==

my form 3 english teacher

who gave me lots of problem during form 5

and asked me to represent my house for competition

although i got two gold medal for that

but i still don't like her

because she gave me low marks for the houses part for koko

but the others,who din involves much,some got higher than me

UNFAIR!!!

i think most probably because i keep on handing up my head prefect speech late

to her and she is the one in charge of school magazine ==

but u know what.. i hand it up to her for more than 5 times

she ask me to write

and i wrote.. she keep on correcting me in the content part

keep asking me to write something that what she want

and also asking me change those content which i intend to write

ohh~ still feel bek chek now.. lol!

what's the point asking me to write it if she keep on wanting ppl to write what she want

and wanna mention that.. what based on my feeling la

she thought her job was extremely important

and she doesn't care what ppl have on hand

because she thinks that her job is the most important one

which she wants everyone to corporate with her ==!

in short

holding a chicken fur and treat it as the commander's arrow

she even used the pbsm room

later even claim it as their sidang reaksi room @@

and prohibit pbsm member from entering it cause there is their com inside

come on man!

pls remember whose room is that

wanna keep the com safe then keep it at office or staff room or u bring it home lo

haiz...

stop the angry part 1st

then during my school prefect gathering

i will also try to know this little girl

this time will get her num face to face

and also confess towards her when meet up rather than sms

which is not really that exciting

then i will buy a bouquet of flower

and wait for her outside her school

during the 1st month anniversary

cause wanna make her face got super red!

really really red that type

however,i will not start with her that fast dy

cause want to let her enjoy the feeling of got chased by me

and i also wanna enjoy the feeling of chasing her

hahaha!!

then when spm finish

i will relax for few weeks and start my college immediately at JAN

and i will study hard since that time

so i no need to worry so much now ==!

well~

back to reality 1st..

AS exam in 12 days time...

worry!

nervous!

2011-09-27T03:35:00.002+08:00

it's 3.38 AM now

i roll and roll on my bed for more than few hours

but i just cant get into dreamland

my brain seems like very energetic right now

hope it maintain till tomorrow night

many scene flashed into my brain just now

from secondary school till now

all the memories came back

at one moment

i was wondering if there is a time machine

which year will i choose to go back?

if i go back? what i'm going to do?

and will what i'm having now remain my possession?

or i will gain more?

or i will lost what is precious to me now,

results from the reversing time adventure?

then i look at my phone..

my god,it's 3 something

and i'm back to reality

i still got to wake up at 8 tomorrow cause dated my friends

to reach college at 10 to study

but i'm still very energetic

2011-09-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

lets clear come dust with some short story

lately.. busy~
very busy~

18 days more to my 1st law paper..

stress!

yea~
especially when thought of how many topic i have to cover

when thought of i'm still not very sure with the answering technique

i'm stress!!

for now.. i'm only touching my law law law and law

din't touch math and econs

lets hope i manage to catch it up once again after the law paper

as i have TWO WEEKS for it..

should i thx god for that??
and yea.. i have two paper on the same day...

and it's econs paper 2..

essay part T.T

that's all for now i guess

CPY~ sabarlah...
and sorry.. u know i like to drag things rite? hehe
be4 christmas k ^^

2011-07-17T11:23:00.002+08:00

here goes another sad post..

the problems seems like it doesn't end

1st with relationship

this time even reach the stage that almost break up

and that happen in our 1 year anniversary week

brilliant timing

2nd~family

i hate dad

i think that "i hate and dad"
sentence probably appeared in my blog or my mouth

for more than don't know how many times

i think he hate me too

i'm really hope to be independent

independent as in no need to take pocket money from him

no need pay school fees by asking from him

totally ignore him and goes on with my life

BUT... i just don't have the ability

useless brats

when i'm undergoing those emo time

i tend to think more

especially towards the negative side

it's UNCONTROLLABLE

many "what if" appeared

if there is a time machine

pls tell me

i'm DESPERATE to have it

however,those are just imaginations... dreams..

i hate this moment

the moment that i wake myself up to reality...

2011-05-25T20:54:00.003+08:00

Lets stop with the BFF post 1st kay?

will continue it some other day

well,law paper for assessment 2 finished today

yet i'm feeling tired now

i'm not sure is it because i was sick last friday

but these few days i really few tired

very tired to continue

1st time in my life that i have the suffocate's feel

yeah... stress is suffocating me

i felt that i always wasted my time doing nothing

or even worst... playing...

that's why i decided to find a part time job

at least can get some experience

earn some pocket money

actually i'm kinda worry that i can't cope with it too

but i think is time for me to grow up

to be a bit more mature

i don't wanna be a childish one anymore

actually i do care when ppl describe me with that word

i know is not a totally bad thing but still i don't like it

that's feeling... i just can't help it

the other part of story

lately i'm kinda miss some of my friends

rephrase... close friends...

at least i treat them as ones

at times,is quite sad when realize that there's been sometime that u din contact with him/her

and actually u and him/her r so so so close before

but now,not even talk or chat once in a week or a month

does that consider close some more?

i und that everyone has their own things to do

own path to walk on

own life to live

hm.. i think that's why ppl say true friend are not easy to get

luckily i still get few... haha...

well,my life isn't that miserable what

cheer up! =)

part 2

2011-05-01T17:19:00.003+08:00

lets continue with my others bff

this is the one~

NG KWAN SING

my 10 years friend

ps: his teeth very white right?
it's just because the light effect... lol!

he and i were the same school since primary

same class from std3 till std6 then form4 till form5

and of course,i know lotssss of his nick name

for example :

MANGKALISING

SING SING

GORILLA

DAO KEI SING

well,we really did went through lots of things

argue.. fight.. fan min..

and now we are still heng dai

still hang out quite often too

although studying at different college

that's what true friendship means i guess

need not to be together always

need not to sms always

keep contact from time to time

supporting each other at the back when one's needs it

having heart to heart conversation when there is a chance

we were not that close last time...

i mean during primary

till form 2 or 3 i guess

and another guy

~ KIT EE ~

all because of prefect things i guess

camp... duty... prefect work.. gathering.. teacher's day

that's where the bonding starts

actually there are kinda much story bout us

i mean those which gave me an impact la

but i don't think i'll type it all out

it's kinda long and complicated

anyway,just wanna tell you that

be more confidence in yourself

u have more than what you knew u have

nothing is easy in this world

the success one is always those whom turn the uneasy to easy

and don't always ask me to share my problems with you only

you may share it with me as well

if facing any problem

just speak it out... pair of ears waiting here

i believe there are some out there too

just don't always keep things to urself

you are not alone

lastly... feel good to have u this heng dai

hopefully the brother-ship between us may sail to the eternity =)

BFF~ part 1

2011-05-01T13:09:00.004+08:00

due to the demand of my dai ga jie

CHOW SUET YAN

that's why i'm going to talk about my BUDDIES in this post

lets start with the intro part~

actually i does feel lucky at times as i knew some friends like YOU

you all light up my world

filled it with rainbows as well

although some of us does not contact much nowadays

or maybe u don't even remember who i'm

or u are not going to see this post

but with 101 honesty,those whom i'm going to post below or later post

is those whom i treasured a lot and will never forget

lets start with the 1st one - the one who demanded this

nah~ CHOW SUET YAN!

i know her from this head prefect camp on 2009

at that time,we were separate into the same groups

and that's where we start to know each other

she looks kinda cool but actually she is quite friendly la

what to do? head prefect look ma... cool cool de

oh ya! that time she so so so so so so so so happy when she know that

she is ELDER than me 4 days

and that's where she started being call as DGJ

we get along quite fast as i keep on zat her because

she keep on zat me too

she said i was VERY FRIEND with this girl (our group menber)

but she don't know she STICK to this guy too, C*** Y**

our group member as well... haha!

dai ga jie, i know u must be scolding me now

but sorry la..

i'm not really get use to not zat u lea..

and feel proud cause i only OFTEN zat my bff oh ^^

lol!

then then after the camp,we still keep contact

and as time passed

although there is bitter and sour

but there is sweet and salty too!

that's what spice up our friendship i think

well.. although we din chat much nowadays

but with this chance

i would like to tell u that no matter how busy i'm

i still won't forget my DGJ geh

(so don't complain i din find u xp)

2011-03-28T20:58:00.003+08:00

i have thousands of feelings wanted to put it here

wanted to plant in this garden and free my heart

but i just don't have the mood

or i should say i don't know where to start?

well,lets start with the hot topic..

~spm results~

i'm really disappointed with it

i know i got what i deserve

but i just regret that why can't i work harder last time

why can't i see what i'm seeing now?

why can't i wake up when there is plenty of advice heard by my ears?

that's life i guess

always regret for what have oneself done

i often think bout what if,what if and what if

i'm aware that i were dreaming that time

but it's quite enjoyable at some point

however,the reality does wake me up

the cruel one? or the nice one?

or neither?

perhaps,i should say is the undetermined one

btw,dai ga jie...

i know i promised u to write something bout my friends

include u in my next post

but i just don't have the mood now

u know i often does things according to mood rite?

be patient.. i will keep my promise ^^

2011-03-21T23:08:00.003+08:00

the 1st assessment coming soon...

the stress is coming back a little followed by a little

at times,it's quite enjoyable

but it may suffer-able as well

feel like hanging out with friends again

maybe drink? jog? or chat?

anything will be fine i guess

some question often appear lately

answer are no where to be found

should i or shouldn't i ?

it will or it wont ?

well,god knows...

the front path is kinda dark now

it doesn't even have a tinct of light

every step is made with worry-ness around

afraid of regretting bout each step i made

hopefully it'll be enlighten by the light of heaven soon

i realize that is kinda fun studying literature

but the idea of dropping it pop into my head today

i feel kinda hectic to take four subject

btw,should i let myself get use to the suffer situation

or should i drop one and put more effort on the others?

hm...

8th month anniversary

2011-03-07T19:42:00.004+08:00

8 month we been together

it's neither short nor long

sweet,precious memory lies within

which i will never forget

although bitter taste does appear

like what normal couple experience

it is sad and hurting

hopefully our love conquer all

i'm not often feel lonely

as you always beside me

Thank You for the accompany

which i treasure extremely much

you always TEA for confession

which i often refused to

because what i may convey

three simplest words describe all

I LOVE YOU ~ ~ <3

2011-02-26T13:14:00.002+08:00

It's time to clear some dust

well,it's 1.18 now... i'm suppose doing my homework...

college life is getting more and more busy

currently i have 2 assignment

some math homework

and some cases reading(teacher demand)

left undone

the pressure are coming back

especially when think of spm results

i often ask my self

does results really that important?

can we still success without a super excellent results?

attitude or results come 1st?

but still it doesn't relieve my anxiety..

i just can't help it

lately happened quite many things..

hopefully that i still can cope with it

and to you...

i feel that i'm getting more and more don't und about u

sometime,i just don't know what u want

especially when u get into contradiction condition

sorry that if i have made u sad or even cried

yesterday u asked why i din't write our both diary

actually i don't have the mood to do so

because i know that u will read it whenever u come my house

and u will get sad or moody after u read some of the pages

but i don't want to make up story just to make u happy

because i just so so so don't wish to lie to u

sorry for that

although our distance had getting further lately

but hopefully that every things gonna be okay

2011-02-07T22:20:00.003+08:00

just finished some revision on math

or i should say further add math??

it's still ok for me

but honestly,

i'm kinda afraid on the following topic as it seems quite tough for me @@

gonna do many practice to strengthen it i guess

okay! back to current life

well,today is the 7th month that i have been in a relationship

so far so good i think xp

this week is also the 3rd week i'm going to college exclude the CNY week

and the TRUE class started today

and i just know it today

that atc have to study "pengajian am" and "moral"

during this period which they call LAN??

yeah! it's really lan!

( as in buruk,don't think to the wrong side )

i guess this is what my friend call it "malaysian studies" ??

well,i don't know~

for me, it's EXTREMELY BORING!!!

i yawn uncountably during the class

but luckily! the class is only 3 hours per week

and and and!!

the teacher MOST PROBABLY will let us go early!! yeah!!! XD

so it's end up only 2 hours?? haha..

but but but!!

for today,it's just one hour plus... lol!!!

oh ya,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to those who see this ^^

god bless and take care

2011-01-31T19:20:00.002+08:00

it's 2011..

and it's gonna be chinese new year

time passed pretty fast

when think back to the past,

especially past few years

i'm regret over number of things

i realize how immature i was

i realize how i wasted my time and money

i realize that i wasted some of the golden opportunity

but during this few years

i learnt lots of things

thx to my teacher and friend

i have to admit that i'm more mature now

although some of my close friend say that i'm childish

( especially childish girl!! )

although sometime i act like a kid

that's one of the way i distress i guess

i can't denied that i miss my secondary school

to be exact,my secondary life...

i don't really miss the school

i miss the people in it and the way we went through 2010

no matter how cool college life is

how many pretty girls is there

how fun is it

i still miss my friends

miss the moment we play insanely

well,i guess the my 1st post in 2011 going to end here

actually i have lots and lots to continue

but it's too much

bye...

24/10

2010-10-24T21:30:00.002+08:00

To my long abandoned blog,

hi and sorry for din update u for some times

well , lately have nothing special actually

it's just mood swing severely and getting more and more often

and yeah , talking bout trial results

i don't wanna think bout it anymore

but its just came to my mind from time to time

which is like a pathogens that strike my body and

the antibodies can't defeat it

and its caused my heart cracked

besides that , this is the first time i don't have the guts to tell my parents bout my results

and luckily they din't ask

but thats only contributed to my guiltiness

because they have believes in me but i failed them

and this is definitely the "greatest" feelings i have ever had ^^

yeah... its GREAT!!

haha

To someone

sorry~ i have no guts to tell u directly

but i know i have disappointed u and the others

what i can say is sorry~

i know u have high hope on me

but still,i failed u

maybe i'm not that good as u think

sorry...

To someone

sorry~ i know i made u worry

i don't know why i'm quite emo recently

and i think we should chat lesser during this last month

the critical month

i hope both of us may study harder

and this would not affect us

hopefully!!

what i can say is...

sorry...

8/9

2010-09-15T00:02:00.002+08:00

I'M SO SO SO STRESSED!!!

my god~ why i always do last minutes work??

and now i left lots to go

( padan muka )

and there are no much time left

*regretting*

this two weeks of holiday??

not holiday at all la

every subject also got module @@

besides math

others,i touch also din't touch

*sad*

HATE MODULE!!!

29/8

2010-08-29T15:17:00.002+08:00

fall sick again~

haiz...

two more days to september

28 days more to trial

SUPER STRESS MAN!!

haiz...

don't know what happen to me lately

this minutes very serious

next minutes very crazy

this minutes happy

next minutes emo

stress?? got insane??

i memang all the while insane de la

hahaha

oh ya!

lately i found that

PIG ALSO WILL FEEL COLD

hahaha!!

14/8

2010-08-14T08:09:00.002+08:00

there are one month left to trial

what i had studied??

nothing... @@

the worst thing is i feel so tired lately

have no energy to study

haiz..

cant even finish a chapter a day

how lousy is that ==

oh ya~ according to last post...

it is just a thoughts

doesn't mean i'm going to do so la

so to someone

need no worries k... =)

9/8

2010-08-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

i feel sick bout today life's again

tried to smile and laugh

but still not really in a good mood

today is the installation for prefects

went up stage and gave blazer as a symbol of passing the responsibilities

heard some comment which i don't really like it

normally i will just accept it

or take it as a lesson??

but today i just feel so annoy to hear it from my friends

a waste of time la~

should prepare this and that la~

i just find all this are super annoying

i just don't know why...

later on,during the math period

teacher ask us to do homework

i was quite tired and lay down

fall sleep ady...

my math teacher wake me up by touch/shake/hit

whatever la~ it shock me and i feel so annoyed that time

she is one of the teacher that i love very much

she scold me also i wont angry at her

but today case,i just don't know why

then some of my friends were keep on talking talking and talking

teacher call us to do the math homework

i was just awake and try to concentrate

then with those noise

i feel like wanna bang my head to the wall

then scolded them after tahan for some time

well , conclusion

some time life really SUCKS!!

hate it man...

today mood really kinda bad

i really tried to smile as i promised to someone

but i just can't smile for all the time

sorry

8/8

2010-08-08T20:44:00.006+08:00

i really feel so sick about my life problems

i met an accident

and i really did nothing wrong bout it

but got scolded badly from my dad

he even ignored me

i wanted to tell him the situation

but he don't even seems to care bout it

he is just ignore me and put all the blame on me

not even giving me a chance to explain

GREAT DAD!!

he is my dad and he don't even support me when i did nothing wrong

i stopped my car slowly and wanted to turn in the junction

the motor came and hit my car

also my fault??

the moment i need his support and he is telling me this??

always say that i give him trouble

i'm your son okay~

if i really trouble u a lot

why don't u just use condom 17 years ago

i prefer to be the sperm that died 17 years ago

u r my dad~ my family~

who else i can trouble besides my closed one??

i thought that is what we call family or friends

my friend even accompany me to make the report

and u were just scolding me

the accident not the things that bring down all my mood

u r the one that make me feel so down and useless

u make me feel so so so so so so so sick about my life u know

once again,suicided thoughts appear again

i just can't control about that

having a dad like u which i hate and heart at the same time

seriously killing me

6/8

2010-08-03T21:27:00.002+08:00

it's august and trial is just around the corner

and i'm so lazy to study

i just feel tired

often sleep in class too ==!

wanna update bout prefect gathering of st mary~

it's nice and fun

but i just too lazy

wait till i got mood to update then =)

watashi no aisuru,Watashi wa son'nani nogasu

23/7

2010-07-23T21:56:00.002+08:00

wow!! lately i'm super tired

dont know why... haha

although i slept for quite long but still i'm yawning during class

and of course did fall asleep xp

besides that,my history teacher changed AGAIN!!

the 4th one now...

don't really like her

she is super action!

but i have to admit her way of teaching is pretty cool

the 1st teacher that taught me history in different way

hahaha...

did ask her lots of question

cause wanna shoot her because she scolded us for nothing

but her funny answer just make us laugh

and to be honest,she is quite humour

then my school came a new PK HEM as well

well~ some new style of life is practising in my school now

although don't really like it

but what to do?? still have to follow it

and!!!

i went to cut my hair!!!

super short man!!

haiz... having heartache dy... haiz...

19/7

2010-07-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

things changes...

nowadays is different from old days

i don't mind if it become better and better

but it seems the other way round

well,maybe that's the challenge of life

who knows??

will tomorrow be a better day??

hope so!

hope both of you talk to each other again,like the old days

hope my class may fill with laughter everyday

hope that poor boy recover

hope everyone not giving up easily

hope our relationship will be better and better

hope to see u everyday

hope to hear your voice everyday

hope we did not make wrong decision

18/7

2010-07-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

sport day ended

din post anything bout it cause kinda busy

next time ba

i'm here now,because i really moody now

this is gonna be a long and emo post

i advice u not to read it

well,i just don't know why i'm having parents that different from other ppl

sometime i feel that they care about me but sometime not

i'm just so confused

i feel like i'm a load towards them

all this while i just hope that i'm able to make them proud

feel happy to have me as son but not as a useless load

i hate to admit that my tears is gathering in my eye

on friday night my dad went melaka

then saturday my mom bought nasi lemak for me as breakfast

and she brought back some nasi ayam from her bank event

during dinner,went out to buy dinner

i was driving and she was keep nagging me bout this and that @@

at that moment,i did think of just end my life by bang the car to the longkang

then when i ask her for money to buy dinner

got scolded from her ==!

" you only know how to dig money from me "

now very big case ah?? ==

i'm not buying abalone or what

and of course,we did fight again

then this morning she just steam few hotdog for me and went out... great mom!

at last i toasted some bread

dinner time~ i called my dad be4 i go out for the basketball competition ceremony

ask him to buy me dinner

then told him that i will be going out

but he ask me to buy myself on the way back

i'm sitting my coach car back ok~

how i ask my coach to bring me to buy dinner

he is not fetching me only k

others player as well lea

i ask U,my dad because u r my dad

i wont feel paiseh to ask u do things cause u are MY DAD!!

u r not a friend or whatever to me

i'm not shy to ask ur favor cause i really treat u as my family

as a person that is very very very close to me

and i just ask u to buy dinner for me when u r on the way back

then when he back

kena shoot again~

"u very understanding de la,but towards outsider only" ==!

"u dont know walk go out to buy ah " ==!

"u want my money only ma" ==!

what the f**k??

my god! i'm going to insane man

does money really that important?!

just on the way back buy some dinner also can't??

does i really act like just want ur money??

is it so hard to ask u buy food for me??

in both of ur eye,i really a load that only want money from u??

GREAT PARENTS !!!!

how i wish i can earn lots of money in future and pay them back!!

how i wish i'm able to be independent now and no need depends on them!!

how i wish i can earn money and take care of myself

no need to use even a single cents of them

but i have to admit that... i'm useless

i'm still have to depend on them

i swear i'm going to study hard!!!

earn more money in future and PAY them back

i swear i will be more independent!!

not going to do something like this two days anymore

i just hate to being a load to others...

i just hate to let others ppl feel that i'm troubling them

but as a family,i din't think of that u will think in that way

i really having a GREAT PARENTS

11/7

2010-07-11T23:06:00.003+08:00

last friday i went school as usual

i thought every things is just gonna be the same

well,it's boring when u going through the same things over and over again

but u know what?? an accident happen in front of my school

and the one got into it was my school student

he is just form one

he is just an innocent librarian

he is just coming to school for duty

and got hit by a motor

when i was there,he seems to be sleeping or fainted??

i don't know~

my mood was complicated that day

i feel warm when there is ppl came to help

i feel sad when i know that his purse have no money when Pn Teoh check his purse for IC

( i was beside her but i din realise it until recess )

but according to canteen auntie,normally he will bring a rm50 note

i feel lost when i realise things can changes in just split of seconds

he din know that he will met an accident

he is just planning to come school and do his duty as a librarian

and after that he will be studying in afternoon session

but,who knows he will got hit by a motorcycle??

and got into ICU

F.Y.I ~ his diaphragm burst

and his intestine went to the upper part

i realise that we really got to appreciate what we have now

think more positively

no matter what,still got to thank god hat we still can reach home and meet out parents

thank god that we still have good friend around

thank god that we still able to talk,eat,see,walk

so, to both of u

my brothers~ pls be appreciate that we still have chance hanging around

no matter what the past happen

is useless to think bout it anymore

why can't one of u just take the initiative and talk to the other one??

is it that hard to open mouth to the one that u shared secret with for the past few years??

to the one that laugh , talk , play with u for the past few years ??

well,is it u guys planning to give up on this "brothership" ??

i just hope that it wont happen

it's not that easy to find such friend in our life...

both of u know who u r...

7/7

2010-07-07T23:22:00.003+08:00

7th of july...

what a special day~

today is the last game of the basketball competition i think...

won three game and lost two

fail to enter last 6

my team only lost one points in one of the game we lost

i'm still not that good in basketball

er... ok la... is lousy

hope after spm can brush up the skill and fight harder next year

7th of july~ a memorable day... ^^

6/7

2010-07-06T14:38:00.002+08:00

i'm sick again!!! @@

alamak eh~ how come i'm so weak ??

always got defeated by fever...

this morning went school and feels like very hot but very cold also ==

well,that's the feeling...

then went home and sleep

sweats a lot and i feel so shuang when i woke up

but after half an hour,feel hot again

and i did drank lots of H2O until my taste bud get annoyed with the taste

1/7

2010-07-01T20:11:00.002+08:00

i'm going to be crazy man!

this few day my mood was kinda complicated

happy + sad + confused = ki siao~

i'm under contradiction i think

feel like find him and talk bout it

we are bro and i thought we should have be more honest to each other?

to be honest,i have no secret with my best friend

few of them...

but this time i just don't know why

i don't know what to say about when i meet him

i really hope that things doesn't happen in such way

but why does it happen in such way...

we are friend for so many years

and now i don't know how to talk to u??

that's funny man! ==

i'm a person that wanna solve things fast

so usually i'm the one who take things out to talk

but this time... hm...

maybe should give him the chance to do so

and i seriously really very hate this kinda of feelings...

~wanna talk but don't dare to~

MY GOD!!

28/6

2010-06-28T20:12:00.002+08:00

today,i'm kinda moody

morning was still ok

but after heard something... well

maybe i can't accept it??

maybe i feel it is quite over??

i just don't know

i just don't feel good

trying to keep it actually

but until that moment really got a bit beh tahan

and i turn out to be so moody

until after school i think

after i played basketball

i feel it's sort of release tension

but still extremely hot and tired to do so

and now i got sunburn..

face red like tomato... ==!

i treasure the friendship or should i say "brothership" within us

i know it's not my problem

but i really can't stand when some one is hurting my brother

maybe i really treat u guys as brothers

that's why i claim urs problem as mine too

i had talk some good things and support u in front of her

and now things happen in such way

i feel like i'm slapping my own mouth

well,hope that the friendship still can go on...

HOPEFULLY!!

27/6

2010-06-27T09:10:00.003+08:00

omg! i have plenty things to post ah!

teacher's day la

prefect gathering la

the band concert la

mei fen birthday outing la

prefect gathering la

gosh!!

well.. yesterday is a super tired day

hahaha

and i that zui kok!!!

coming back without informing!!!

SUI ZAI BETUL!!!

but suan la...

still happy to see him back =)

hm... sometime i feel that relation

is just something that r very complicated

don't know what to say

better remain silence and let them decide them self

just hope that every things wont happen in the worst way

25/6

2010-06-25T20:19:00.002+08:00

i'm seriously beh song that person man!!

i hate to have such an irresponsible ajk

really feel frus when saw his face

can u imagine that a prefect holding a post

din come on teacher's day??

and he said he was sick

gave letter but who knows whether it's true or not??

i can skip school and ask my dad write one letter to school also k

the best part is

i asked his brother on teacher's day morning

me : "where is ur brother??"

his bro : "at home "

me : "why din come?? izzit sick??"

his bro : "no,he just don't want to come "

==!!!

u know what he told me when school reopen??

"MY BROTHER DOESN'T KNOW I'M SICK"

my goodness...

wanna cheat also use brain la

he is just staying in a flat house

not big also

and home come his brother don't know he is sick?!

does that make sense??

okay,if he is really sick

can't he try to inform us ??

if he is normal prefect then it's ok

but now he is the ajk

and he have something to in charge

sick till can't even make a call??

btw,he said that he din come because his eye pain

that morning,i called him

him : "sorry oh,i was away that time"

me : why din''t u call back?? "

him : "my phone out of credit"

me : "house phone??"

i can't remember what he said,but he was telling me that his house phone can't use

me : "so u doesn't have anyway to contact one of us to inform that u r absent??"

me : "can't even tell ur brother to tell us u can't come cause u r sick??"

him : "ok,i'm sorry... i know i'm wrong"

SINCE U KNOW!! THEN DON'T SHOW STUPID BEH SONG FACE WHEN I TAKE ACTION!!!

u r an ajk ok!!

not a normal prefect

how can u just din show up and din inform when u have something to in charge?!

my goodness

i just don't know why a PREFECT

a LEADER

can done such things

==!

21/6

2010-06-21T15:36:00.002+08:00

1st day of 2nd semester

it's great to back to school

to meet friends... chat... play...

but it's definitely bad that have to wake up early

so so so and so sleepy man !!

today got back and and the half paper

feels like wanna strangle myself

omg!!

math~ so many careless mistake!!!

those mistake really super duper stupid mistake

and because of that,got 92... haiz...

less than last exam 1 marks

then chemistry

blank out during exam

paper 2 is seriously did super extremely bad

section a ~ 25/60

section b ~ 10/20

section c ~ 2/20

omg!!

saw that section C ?!?!

2 out of 20 lea...

i really feel myself very "GENG" liao @@

haiz... sad man!

feel to sorry to pn azmar

she gave tips and this is the results i can get !?

haiz..

feel sorry to pn amirah too

fail to get 100 for her

seriously no eye to see the math paper

silly mistake till cannot silly anymore

19/6

2010-06-19T17:38:00.002+08:00

gonna say goodbye to holiday~

two weeks and nothing much done

add math project = haven touch

holiday module = half way??

studies = din touch

i feel like want to strangle my own self!

the 1st week was boring

but the second one was not

luckily~ haha

went to TOUR on thursday

had a memorable experiences

walking around,finding clue with brothers

keep on guessing

wow! haha

and my group marshal was kinda cool

he is friendly and mix quite well with four of us

after the game,thought of going time square yamcha

but at last went the gardens to celebrate LI QUN birthday

she was so looks extremely HIGH the whole day

hahaha!!!

and we went there in a group with 10++ girls

and TWO guys only

haha... i was kinda paiseh

( don't ask me whether i will paiseh or not,i answer u now... i will )

because i just know few of them XD

so it was quite awkward

haha

but still it was great

oh ya~

met chelsea

chelsea oon... my adorable sister

lol!! talked for a while only

when going back

we took some pic

but we was like keep on walking and stop and take and walk and stop.......

her friends and my fiends were "blowing" us

hahaha...

but due to technical problem

the photo tak cantik

then i deleted... haha

maybe in future take again ba

when we have plenty of time @@

GOD BLESS!!

2010-06-16T23:13:00.004+08:00

one day~

ken loong and i was so free

and we decided to spam kwan sing account

F.Y.I

i was super HIGH when taking those pig

hahahaha

12/6

2010-06-12T23:13:00.003+08:00

yeah.... today was fun!

hahaha

went to lake club with my friends

went gym a while

then went to play badminton since there is an empty court

that's the time that nazrin was so SS!!

my goodness~

if he din have spare tyre on his body

he would have take off his shirt and do what lin dan do

hahaha

lol!!

and u know what??

injured my hand again when playing badminton

useless right??

so easy to get injured...

haiz..

then after that went swimming

only me and ekwan and mahesh went in the pool

the others were sitting there and watch

==!

sing took some pic too...

lol! make me so shy... din wear cloth lea!

hahaha...

anyway

had our dinner there

and chat for a while then bye bye...

conclusion

it was fun

it will be more if we plan better next time

haha

11/6

2010-06-11T20:18:00.002+08:00

once again

i privated my blog...

why?? butt itchy ==

this few days was kinda boring

but actually i got plenty of stuff to do

but just not in mood to do it

today as usual~

playing around and din study much

and now it's already 8.20

haiz...

10/6

2010-06-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

it's thursday now

which means holiday left one week ++

and i got tons of work waiting for me

to be honest

i wasted my six days of holiday ==

started to regret

but i guess i will be playing around after this

==!!

well,this few days not feeling well AGAIN

and i got slight fever AGAIN

last time laugh meng hui that he is kinda weak

now got balasan ady!!

lol!!

7/6

2010-06-07T19:52:00.003+08:00

I SERIOUSLY HATE MY SIS AND MOM

30/5

2010-05-30T09:22:00.003+08:00

30 of May

a special date

hahaha

going to private my blog soon

if u wish to read

remember call me to invite u

so i can know who u r... haha

2010-05-29T22:12:00.003+08:00

my lovely class teacher~

PN AZMAR !!

29/5

2010-05-29T21:51:00.002+08:00

i'm really don't know how to express my hatred towards my dad

i don't know how to tell the complicated story out

walked for 3km+ to back home today

the housing area that without light seriously scary

passed by a building that look like a "ghost house"

after a while , passed by a place that having a while candle with some paper

which chinese use it to tell ppl there is someone dead

walk beside that lilin time,out of sudden heard some horn sound

and i pretty sure not the horn sound which can heard from car ==

the dark road which i cant even see my fingers

luckily not all the way... some part of it still having some lights

i wish there are someone beside me or talking with me through phone

at least not that lonely

wish to call someone but don't dare at 1st

at last called but she is busy

then call another friend then hang it half way ringing

well,at last reach home after half an hour

thx god~ nothing bad happened...

~memories~

2010-05-29T21:31:00.002+08:00

the same road

the same time

the same darkness

make me remember of u

the day i went out at night

just to buy a reload card

passing the dark road

met a dog and chased by it

funny right??

a big guy are afraid of dog

i remember once i said i will wait you untill spm finish

until the day u will accept a relationship

and i seriously mean it

and u said ok

but i just don't know why

at that moment

u did something that i hate the most

then our friendship was like hm...

but still , at that moment...

i'm still falling for u

last time,sometime i purposely to stay back

until the right time

and take bus home

just hoping to meet u

although the chances is kinda small

but i just dont know why i'm doing it

but today

i know that we are impossible

because the white horse prince you wanted

is some one who leng zai

and i know that's not me

don't dare to think any of this all this while

until just now

i went through something that i did last time

it just passed a year

and everything changed

i know u wont see this

that's why i typing it out

well,i think u will never know it for ur entire life...

26/5

2010-05-26T15:56:00.002+08:00

i'm going to crazy man!!!

yesterday night,can't sleep well

i felt very sleepy actually

but once i lay on my bed

teachers day things appear in my head again

actually those thing can be settle by time

but who knows

this morning

Pn Noriah only tell me that the program have to change

morning got to have a ceramah

because don't know what happened

don't know whose instruction

or whatsoever

i just know that the program book for teacher day HAD SETTLED!!!

it just haven't paste it into the book

now?? great!! got to Photostat and cut and paste it again!

my goodness!!

beside that,the program changed

so in other words

before this the plan that we prepare the breakfast for teacher

the time management

have to change

and the prize

the game

have to change as well

and maybe got to be cancel

great right??

for me ~ it's FABULOUS

there are less than a week more to teacher's day

and my exam still going on

tomorrow bio some more

wow!

i'm seriously feeling super stress right now

this friday holiday some more

not sure whether can go back school to do things or not

my god!!

why things had to happen in such a way

some more now exam week

i can get nuts too ok~

we are already short of time

and now the work got doubled

my god ah my god

seriously going to siao liao...

25/5

2010-05-25T22:38:00.003+08:00

today i realised that life is so so so unpredictable

when i imbas kembali

i wonder will i doing the same thing now if those things doesn't happen

will it be better or worse if the things doesn't happen as what had happened

numbers of "what if" appeared too

well,maybe this is what we call it life

sometime i wonder how long a friendship can last ??

today touching shoulder and chat happily

tomorrow backstab him or cheats him

how long will a relationship last ??

today ~ i love you

tomorrow ~ i hate you

how long will the spirit last ??

today ~ must study hard!

tomorrow ~ this movie so interesting la

23/5

2010-05-23T11:58:00.003+08:00

today is just another sunday

it's the best day of the week!

no tuition~ no activities~

4 alphabet

NICE!!!

yesterday night was as usual too

went training

yesterday was a hectic one

warm up

run

train

then pumpng for 50 time... walao eh

later on still got to play a game with some pro player

but it's seriously kinda fun

hahaha

this morning wake up

whole body pain!

yesterday din study

morning till now also din study

now exam week lea

hahaha

lazy = me

21/5

2010-05-21T16:03:00.002+08:00

at last... the camera case settled

my goodness!

went to talk with her mom lea =.=!

but at least reduced one things to be think of....

20/5

2010-05-20T20:34:00.003+08:00

my god!

the problem really annoy me a lot man

just hope to settle it as fast as possible

really sorry to my mom for lost her camera again

as a responsible son,i got to buy another new one for her

the guilty in me serious making me heartache

and i seriously hate that monk a.k.a CHEN KAR HAO...

never seen a person like this before

no egg!!!

F.Y.I~i pass my camera to kwan sing

cause that time i got to go out from the class to find a place to keep those prefect things

and my prefects were rushing so i have to run instead of walk

and it is very inconvenience for me to run around with a camera

then kwan sing went out for awhile and pass it to that monk

call him to take care of it

and he nodded

so after when i'm back

i asked immediately ask for my camera and it's lost ==!

and that stupid monk still can go down to canteen and eat

i was like what the ...... !!!

fine~

so few of us find and find and find

nth found

then on monday ask him what to do

he told me he don't know

later he ask me back

so i say buy one back la

and he say it's not only his responsibility ==!

my junior who only sit there and doing prefect work also kena

and of course he drag kwan sing into water as well

fine then

i told him i will only find him because he is the one lost it

and he decided to ask both of them as well

and as long as at last u pay me back a camera

i don't care how u get it

he himself said "if u two pay then i also pay"

so ok~ settled

the best part is...

the next day his mom complain to teacher

MY GOODNESS!!!

how old oh??

form five dy

some more holding the secretary post

which is the third highest post in my school prefectorial board

17 years old

some more call mummy ah??

what a kid!!

a girl as well

then on wednesday

teacher ask us to stay back

wanna settle this case

and he say he go out just to pass things to his mom

and who knows... din't come back

he said his mom call him to go back

if he tell his mum,teacher wanted to see us

which parents will stop??

complain dy then don't want to let her son to see teacher kah??

what a stupid reason man...

wanna cheat also think a better one la

CHEN KAR HAO~ u r such a loser...

no egg!! not a man at all

and u also a small ppl... in mandarin we call xiao ren

if beh song then talk face on face

don't do so many small acts

XIAO REN!!!

look down on u man!!

sorry~ u r not a man...

look down on u GIRL!!!!

last time he done something wrong

and scolded by me after many time of telling him to change

he go and complain to teacher! =.=!

i'm seriously stun!
luckily i have proof

otherwise kena again from PN NORIAH...

and after that,PN NORIAH just ask him to do well his job and try to corporate with me

and when he complain... PN NORIAH questioned me!

MY GOODNESS!!!

so pilih kasih lea...

that time pass dy then fine la

i don't wanna think bout it so much

BUT!!

now... kwan sing passed the camera to chen kar hao a.k.a stupid monk!

he lost it~

and i got to come out part of the portion

what's my fault??

for believing my brother and my ajk??

she say that i have no permission to take camera to school

so when lost it,got responsibility as well

hey,i told u k

when i take ur pic,i told u that we need teachers pic for teachers day

and u know i'm bringing camera

and guess what she said....

"NO LETTER... NO BLACK AND WHITE

SAID THAT ALLOWED U TO BRING"

then why that time i told u i'm bringing

u din't say that u need letter??

last friday was not the 1st day i'm bringing

i brought for few days dy k

and u din't said anything bout letter

now,that monk lost my camera

and because HER mom complain

u are trying to defend him?? ==!

kwan sing pass it to him and ask him to take care of it

and he NODDED!!

so now lost it... who should take the responsibility??

stupid noob... u r such a loser man...

seriously look down on u

still kids huh??

"mummy mummy,my friend ask me to pay him back his camera"

F**K Y**!!

NO EGG!!

change school to girl school la...

10/5

2010-05-10T20:00:00.003+08:00

today is just another tired day

at night ~ can't sleep
morning ~ can't wake

what a nice life is this??

today did nothing for the preparation of teacher's day

i wonder do we have enough time

program book = not done

souvenir = not done

performance = not done

games = not done

prize = not done

video = not done

yeah!!

this time so high liao

next week exam

finish exam,less than two day then teacher's day

fabulous!

then when got bad results

our faults cause din study hard

everybody got 24 hours u know

is ur problem that u don't know how to arrange time

how to arrange it when we have no time??

but no matter what

i still hope to organize 1 memorable year of teacher's day for my teacher

that all the teacher feel happy of it

i really love my school teacher

( some of them )

quite many actually

but i doesn't like few of them

4 alphabet!!

9/5

2010-05-09T17:39:00.002+08:00

one lesson learnt

it's good to stay cool down when we are moody

it will cause u do something that not only hurt ur friends

and it will making u feel guilty as well

nothing else we can do after the incident beside say sorry

but does that really help??

not really...

hope time may cause the incident to be forgotten

8/5

2010-05-09T00:14:00.004+08:00

this post is going to be a long and emo post

i advise u not to read

sometime i just feel that there are no place/people for me to fully relay on

a place that cheer me up whenever i'm sad

a place that able to make me stop emo-ing when i think of it

a place that comfort me whenever i feel i'm useless

a place that give me courage when i need it

a place that make me stand back whenever i fail

my dad ??

i can't say that he is not a good dad

but sometime what he did really make me hate him

1st~he always cheat me

he really thought i'm still 3 years old kid

or do i look stupid??

i know i'm stupid but not stupid until that type of stage ok

i'm not a retard or mental disability childish or down syndrome kids

and i seriously hate people cheat me

i'm really very very care about it when those who are close to me cheat me

family members... best friend... whoever i care about la

2nd~as i grow up

i feel like he don't treat me like his son anymore

he just give me money every month

fetch me here and there

but do u know what i want the most is not all of this

and he keep on scold me this and that

even small matter he want to make it like i have killed somebody

just now when he fetch me back from basketball

i'm already in a bad bad bad mood condition

when i ask him pass by 7-11 to buy phone card before go home

got scolded again

at that time,i feel like my tears gonna burst out

f.y.i ~ i'm not a person who cry easily

except something really feel extremely sad happened

the last time i feel like wanted to cry was last year... somewhere around june i think

but i success in holding it back

the tears only stay on my eye and i let it to evaporate

or maybe it go back to my eye

i don't know

3rd~i feel myself am a burden to him

i want to make him proud

i want make him feel happy cause of me

and the last time i feel that from him was when i told him my pmr results

although it just a moment

but i'm already satisfy

but there have been a long time i din have that kind of feeling again

i just always get scolded by him

and i really feel sick of it

no matter small case or big case

also kena scold

i really don't know why my dad want to treat me like this

and he always scold me include my bro and sis with some words that are very very very bad

i bet u can't imagine it

last time he was not like that

although after he got someone outside but still love us

but now i really can't feel it anymore

i really hate that person man

what about my mom??

forget it!

this morning i went to the chinese competition

i had choose the tittle "invisible wings"

i wrote bout my mom

it was true story except one paragraph

all the vision that happened long time ago appeared in my brain

how u support me,how u love me,how u take care of me

i seriously feel guilty when i think back what i did to you for the past few years

disobeying u... talk back... argue with u... and many many more

but when u come to fetch me back home

and we went to buy our lunch

i bought one coconut water cause the weather is seriously hot

and i feel so hot and super thirsty

but u scolded me cause of that

come on! it just rm4

what so big deal bout it??

i know i used ur money to buy it

but as a mom,do u really need to be so calculative with ur son

and i beh tahan,go home took four ringgit and pay her back

it just rm4 and make us argue for it

yea u get the rm4 back but u already lost my love on u

i really don't feel u are my mom

the way my mom and dad treat me make me feel like i'm not their son

i always thought of whether izzit they are helping some other ppl to take care their son

or maybe picked me up from rubbish bin

i just don't know

and my tears is patrolling in my eyes again

lately i didn't do well on my studies too

get scolded few time as well

do u guys think i don't want to finish my homework if i got the time??

do u guys think i really don't want to study if i got the time??

there are some teacher that i don't care bout their comment

and i hate them... one or two maybe

but for some... i really don't wanna disappoint u guys

i really care bout what u feel and think of me

i wanna make u guys proud of me instead angry or sad or whatever...

inside my heart i really treat u guys like my parents

some of u even closer with me compare with my parents

but really sorry for lately condition

i promise i will try my best to improve it

i just need some time to settle all the things down...

lately i always wonder what is the purpose for me to continue living on this earth

to pay debts?? to be a burden to my parents??

to become a student who make teacher angry??

to be honest,thinking commit suicide did appear in my brain for few time before

but i'm still awake,not going to do stupid things

it just appear and it disappeared

feel kinda tired for now

don't feel like continuing anymore

it's long enough i think

5/5

2010-05-05T21:12:00.002+08:00

i'm half dead man

seriously feel tired! suffering! headache!

argh...

lately have a very very very hectic life

almost can't stand it dy

going to be insane soon

monday until thursday

after school got things to do

so maybe got to stay back a while

if not then go home

after a couple of hours

got to go out tuition pulak

then back home around 7 something

after dinner ~ 8 something

left me 1 hour plus to do my homework before i go to bed

saturday ~ my time is fully occupied

morning 7 till night 12

luckily friday and sunday did have time to rest

if no any activities or class tambahan ==

really feel exhausted man!!

3/5

2010-05-04T20:42:00.002+08:00

i'm seriously going to be mad soon

this coming Saturday,Chinese competition

two weeks more

mid term exam

on the early of June

it's teacher days

wow!!

FABULOUS!!!

remember to pay me visit if i enter tanjung rambutan

well,so far still okay i think

my ajk did help me

it just sometime and some of them tend to create some problems

but sometime they did help me solve problems too

it's like kinda weird u know~

some time act like an responsible person

do things well

finish things before deadline

give much commitments

together solve things out

work as a team

showing effort to get things right

some time act the other way round

do things cincai cincai

tell me they can't make it when the deadline reach

not going to give commitments

does not want to work with the team

i don't mind that u can't finish the job

but i'm very mind that u din't show effort doing it

our board have many prefects

have 7 ajk as well

why can't we work as a team??

why can't u guys try to approach to others when u can't solve it??

i don't know

anyway,i'm still feel proud and happy of having a group of responsible ajk

a group of active juniors (except some of them)

and a bunch of brothers

we did a great job on the hari merentas desa

earning 230++ with the drinks

why don't we keep up the work and do better in everything that are coming

raise the prefectorial board name

make prefects feel proud to become a prefect

make people look up on us

make every teacher pointing their thumb up when they mention us

we can do it if we unite and help each other

hope my dream come true~

2/5

2010-05-02T17:34:00.002+08:00

my god~

i'm seriously feel so tired man

those homework is killing me

chemistry note
Chinese essay

literature

physic exercise

argh!!!!!

exam is just two week away

i doubt whether got time for study

homework just took all my time

plus i'm addicted to Percy Jackson series

i'm reading the last book now

and it is sooooo interesting!!

haiz...

but seriously got to finish my homework

doesn't hope my teacher got any consequences caused of it

especially chemistry work

seriously feel so sorry to pn azmar

kinda guilty also

i have to finish until chapter three

and now i'm just reach the alkenes part

my goodness!!!

argh!!!

hope that i would be able to finish it by today

1/5

2010-05-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

my leg is extremely pain now!!
haven recover due to cross country competition and just now went training
wow!!
super high...
now the leg is kinda... er... hard i should
it will pain even when i'm just walking slowly...
hahaha

as usual~
plan to study and do homework
but nothing done :(

29/4

2010-04-29T21:25:00.002+08:00

yo~
tomorrow is our school annual cross country competition

to be honest,i'm walking with my friends and chat

all this years...

hahaha

but this year due to some reason

i think i'm going to run

it's my last year as well

kinda excited for it... hahaha

25/4

2010-04-25T11:23:00.005+08:00

~my jersey~
number 5 ^^

it is kinda big for me actually

i order L size

but because short of stock

whole team of mine got some jersey which are bigger size than we order

example~ i got XXL ==!

when i'm running

the shirt is jumping

when i'm jumping
the shirt is flying

some pic taken after we won the 1st place in the group stage

which mean successfully get into quarter final

hahah

from left to right

zhen kwan~chu yang~lim kok~me~wen yeh~lap fei
nic~ah kit~ah piau~ken loong~dylan~kenneth
chee kun

this time take with my teacher pulak
pn Haslina
i was get get ready yet ==!

and chee kun took the pic liao

anyway,still feel good in the team

we got praised by our teacher for having good discipline

another school teacher,friend of pn Haslina praised us as well

kinda proud of the team

hahaha

no matter get into semi final or not

i'm still feel happy to be part of it

more pic coming i think

just upload all those pic to my com

well,i know it's late

but better than din have right... xp

21/4

2010-04-21T21:44:00.002+08:00

sometime i just hope to get out of my daily routine

it is so boring and tired and packed and busy

hate it!!

i wish i could do whatever i want

no need to check how much time i left to finish my work

no need to check the time when i got to go tuition

will i late or what time i should go out

hate it!!

no need to worry when is the deadline for the work

no need worry bout what should i do for the moment

well,it is just my short short dream

AND!!!

i hate someone leave message and doesn't want to tell me who they are =.=!

it makes me feel to private my blog again @@

i don't even deserve to know who leaving those message
after they read my thoughts and feelings??

haiz... another joker...

20/4

2010-04-20T15:45:00.003+08:00

everything ended

can't get through

lost 5 marks

sorry guys

i'm super nervous today

din play well

not even on par :(

sorry!

20/4

2010-04-19T21:47:00.002+08:00

today win ady... yea~
we success enter quarter final

tomorrow going to meet connaught at quarter final
another tough game
a very tough i think
no matter what
still got to play our best

today my grandfather urut my hand
(he is a very experienced tit da sifu oh... haha )
really feel much more better
but when reach home,jump here jump there...
now the muscle seems to be a bit tensed back ==
haiz

after the quarter final
going to play semi final around 10 something i think
IF WE WIN

once again hope god will be with us tomorrow ^^

18/4

2010-04-18T21:44:00.002+08:00

yo! yo!
yesterday went to pess school prefect gathering
one word to describe ~ "awesome"
the performance was nice
the souvenir is so so so creative
invitation card also
hand made lea... haha
i doubt can my school do that??

met few friends there
friend from last year head prefect camp
know few new friends as well
zhen kwan saw her lui san there also
hahaha!!

well,tomorrow is the last basketball match for group stage
and we are entering the quarter final
yea!
actually this year we were aiming to get into semi final
hope that we will get a "good" school in quarter final
hope so!!
pray to god!! XD

my hand is better now
but still some time when i used energy
the tendon seems to be quite tight
it's kinda hurt actually
can't sleep well at night
but luckily when i'm playing basketball
it doesn't feel much pain ^^ haha
the power of basketball i think xp

at last
hope god can be with my team during the competition
please take care us ^^

13/4

2010-04-13T16:09:00.002+08:00

finished another game

today's game was kinda hectic

it is rough

almost got into fight

because one of the opponent player said something very action

really beh tahan

this is the first time i got so much faults~4

i would be going out of the court if i fault for another time

coach say we din't did well in this game

yeah~ kinda agree too

i seriously did very badly in 1st quarter

luckily at last still consider ok

it is really hard to play with an injured hand

whenever i raised my hand up

it will pain

but luckily start from second quarter

not sure whether feel hot dy or truly warmed up

i even forgotten bout it and it's like no feeling

but sadly,now it's pain again ==

really got to thx my team mate for playing quite well

although all of us did argue

but after arguing,we were back to normal within that minutes ^^

besides that

we get compliment!!

our teacher adviser ~ pn Haslina praised us

her friend,another teacher from sri permaisuri

did say our team have discipline

got team work

and so on la...

good job man!

keep it up!

hope that we are able to enter semi final ^^

=-=

2010-04-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

do i look stupid??

why u like to cheat me??

i'm not three years old kid anymore

i can feel it when u are telling lies

and u know what

i seriously HATE LIAR

sometime i pretend that things are the same

it doesn't mean that i don't know what is happening

HATE LIARS !!!!

12/4

2010-04-12T19:33:00.002+08:00

yeah!! today's game was awesome
hand injured a bit
but luckily is still consider a minor injury la
hope tomorrow feel nothing

today played two games
the second game play around 2
my goodness
the sun is seriously killing me
it is so so so so and so hot
my whole body is full of heat
still can feel the heat now although back for few hours
tomorrow having another game on 10
hoping that we will do well
^^

thx god for answering my prayer =)
G B M T~

9/4

2010-04-09T22:23:00.003+08:00

few days more to basketball competition

seriously kinda excited

last year for me to represent my school

to play in zone pudu

this few days

got a bit of slight fever

not serious

it just 37.5 but still feeling kinda uncomfortable

my body sweat easily

less than few hours after bath

i will feel sticky again

today got back my few exam paper

Chinese just got 65

nvm~ got to put more effort on it

add math got back paper one

got 60/80

but i know my paper 2 is going to be very ugly

very very very ugly indeed

my dad went back to penang this morning,with my brother

my mom and sis is going back too

in another four hours i think

and i will be home alone again

kinda lonely plus bored actually

experienced few times

going to settle my meals myself until monday

anyway,today nothing special

school was fun today =)

8/4

2010-04-08T21:54:00.003+08:00

~today~

i don't know whether i'm luckily or i'm having bad luck today

my school got one program call permata kasih

according to my teacher

they say other school did that as well

well,this programme is some thing like ibu angkat and bapa angkat

each teacher will be having 4 to 6 anak angkat

and whenever they got their results

or they having any problems

they got to see their ibu angkat

meanwhile,their ibu angkat will be observing them as well

and today,our exam finished

not sure whether is it because of stress

we were a bit insane

when teacher announced who is that teacher and his or her anak angkat

they got to go in font of the dewan and my class... my gang...

we were like so insane...

shouting around

blowing whistle

lol!

hahaha

others student did that too

but not as crazy and as obvious as we are

and here come the main point

everyone got their ibu angkat / bapa angkat

kwan sing got encik harun

(discipline teacher)

he don't quite like him i think

nic got pn ruhaizah

my physic teacher (so shuang)

kit ee got pn azlinda

the teacher that we did offence her last year

my gang in my class

cause don't like her showing off her class english results in our class

but it just because she mark it not as strict as our teacher mark

ken loong got .......

don't really remember

mahesh got pn aziaty

he seems quite happy

prasad got .......

forgotten as well

and the most interesting is

u know who i got??

i got my school headmistress as my ibu angkat ==

and those teacher was seems like kinda "high"

some of them come and congrats me

all my brothers was cheering like mad when i'm going out

they even shout my name when it my headmistress turn to meet her anak angkat

==! X100

i was kinda stun at that moment

F.Y.I ~ we got to find our ibu angkat to inform about our results

each time the results is out

my friends are going to see the teacher

and i'm going to see the headmistress ==!!

every time when results was out u know...

not once in a while or what so ever

every time have any problems... misbehave...

our ibu angkat will know....

the feeling is like

erm...

even a small case

i maybe got to see the headmistress

ppl take results giv their parents or teacher to overlook

and i'm going to show it to my headmistress

==!

she is a person who quite high expectation

she want our results to be better

cause last year results was quite terrible

(what my teacher said)

so is this good or bad??

i don't know~

i did pray to god before teacher announce it

i don't care which teacher i got

as long as it is good for me

and i seriously hope god will answer my prayer

so whether i'm luckily or not

tell u in the future...

~GOD BLESS ME~

7/4

2010-04-07T20:47:00.002+08:00

well,today kinda mood less

don't know why

it just mood less

finished exam

physic paper three was still ok

not that hard

and today i seriously piss off of myself

i did some very very very very stupid mistake in my math exam

when i know those mistake,i was like

WHAT THE!!

got full marks for paper one and section A

but section B i lost 10 MARKS!!!

my goodness...

and those marks lost just because of some stupid mistake

there state -0.6

i look it as 0.6

==!

35-25.5

i answer 10.5

==!

i done the step with pencil (cause i thought no need to show it)

then i erase it

==!

question ask to find mean

i add all but forgotten to divided

==!

and because all this stupidest mistake

i lost 10 marks

got 93 for my math this time

which drop two marks from the last exam

haiz..

besides , i have craps my biology,chemistry,physics,add math and sejarah paper

when i think back my add math

i seriously feel i'm useless ==!

this don't know

that don't know

then my teacher told me my moral paper was kinda bad

and i think my language subject is bad as well

din got enough time for Chinese

bm~don't know the peribahasa

english don't know yet but i don't think it is good

*piang*

my heart broken

every subject also so lousy

seriously feel i'm kinda useless

study cannot

sport cannot

this cannot

that cannot

what i can??

die lo ==!

haiz....

6/4

2010-04-06T20:10:00.004+08:00

yoyo!!

tomorrow i'm going to take my last paper

physic paper 3

yeah!

next week is the pudu zone competition start

hope that we can get good results this year

besides,i heard my coach say that another competition

for under 18 players

start at the middle of april as well

but it be on at night

feel kinda excited bout it

cant wait for next monday to come

i doubt whether i can sleep on this sunday night or not??

hahaha

today when i was doing physic paper two

my head was kinda pain

and i know my old friend visit me again

~fever~

it is prove that it is present after i check my temperature just now

and now i'm seriously feel super lazy to study although tomorrow is the last paper

kwan sing very bian tai

kit ee like ivy

zui kok like... no need tell la...

whoelse beside her??

God Bless Us

5/4

2010-04-05T20:15:00.003+08:00

i seriously got problem with my sis and mom

i hate my sis man!!

why she is just so brainless?!

did something wrong but still acting as she is the right one

she got 6A for her UPSR

but why cant she use her brain to think?!

my goodness...

always make me fight with my mom

and my mom also another one

why she always stand at my sis side although she is doing something wrong

and when ppl telling her

show some kind of noob and f***ing face

seriously wanna wack her

slap her for ten times also cant reduce my anger now

luckily i still can control myself just now

din hit her

but hit her bag

and she was like throwing tempered

throwing her tie at her table

my goodness!

all of sudden my fire burst out

took her tie and throw at the floor and throw back to her

then still showing some f***ing face

rampas the tie from her hand and throw here and there again

i wish her tie can be tear at that moment

at last

gaduh with mom again

==!

seriously hate my sis

but luckily at moment i receive her message

i just don't know why all my fire went down

i just can't figured why she is so special to me

her act may make me very sad or very happy

do i still like her ??

i don't know

~God Bless Us~

4/4

2010-04-04T08:59:00.002+08:00

i hate night mare!

haha... yesterday i dream bout something nearly jump my nerve out of my skin

i got 1 marks for my english essay in exam!

so scary man

and the teacher

not sure who but feel like it's my primary english teacher

he or she said i wrote vulgar language in the essay

==!

i ask him to show me

i act don't believe bout that

but i was feeling like i did wrote it

it just i don't believe myself

haha

insist teacher to find it out

later,i not very sure what is going on

then after sometimes i realise i'm in a dream

when i woke up

feel so relief... hahaha

i really don't know what my reaction is if my English essay just got 1 marks!!!

meanwhile

i feel my whole body

so pain! so tired! so lazy!

don't wish to wake actually

but atlast due to the super attraction of my com

i did wake ==!

after washed face,brush teeth

straight away online until now...

and my exam season haven over yet @@

later going to study??

i don't think so...

haha

3/4

2010-04-03T17:53:00.003+08:00

wow! super tired man!

yesterday sleep around 1

today wake at 4

now is already 6

din study anything today

later 7 going out

haiz...

when only can i really sit down quietly and study??

today was kinda happy

meet my cousin

talked lots of things

my cousin sister

she took 7A+ 1A 1A- for her spm

and because of that single A-

she lost 4000 of the scholarships

my goodness...

i wonder whether i can get such good results??

really salute her

2/4

2010-04-02T21:29:00.004+08:00

today ~ crap the history paper

i did read bout that topic yesterday

but dont know why i just cant remember

last minutes study??

blank out??

i dont know~

later went to lokman for basketball friendly match

it was kinda fun

hope it will be the same for others too

won the game

know our weakness

hope everyone will be better during the pudu zone competition

after that,went to celebrate ivy birthday

nothing special...

just went mcd meet and chat

bought secret recipe cake for her

but still kena zat... haha

then went tai chi yuen pasar malam

was kinda exhausted

my leg is going to cramp

luckily it din

back home around 9 something

tomorrow got to wake up at four

going for qing ming

sometime human are just so weird

or should i put it that i'm the one who weird??

i know the results of it

but i just dont know why still put hope on it

waiting for miracle??

don't be silly man

miracle would not happen on me

GBM~

1/4

2010-04-01T20:07:00.002+08:00

Happy April Fool day!

did u giv ppl fooled

or fooled ppl??

haha

hm.. back to emo mood 1st

sometime,i just don't know what u r thinking

i'm keep guessing

but still

i don't know

sometime,u say "this" but u act like "not this"

my sixth sense tell me that

hm...

m'i thinking too much??

maybe...

tomorrow having sejarah exam :(

after school got friendly match with lokman

cant go to celebrate my ah ma birthday

which maybe is good (due to some reason) :(

31/3

2010-03-31T15:10:00.002+08:00

add math paper is over...

hard?? no~

it is very hard...

paper two is seriously taking my life

left blank for few question...

haiz...

not enough time somemore

haiz...

30/3

2010-03-30T21:24:00.001+08:00

chess competition
basketball competition
crash date!!

what to do??

i don't know~
haiz...

28/3

2010-03-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

MORAL!!

why u got so many definitions to remember??

why got to remember those kata kunci??

my god!!

36 ah!!

my head gonna burst...

27/3 ~ part 2

2010-03-27T12:14:00.002+08:00

due to some feeling still disturbing me in my heart
so i decided to let this post to keep it
sometime human talk
really got to think twice
even when scolding ppl
some words got to hold it back
even sometime i got very angry to some prefects
but when scolding them
i still got to take care of their feeling
not letting them feel they are useless
or does not take off the spirit in their heart
but who is going to think bout my feelings??
sometime when teacher saw the prefects who their hair are long
the pants are not according to the rules
finger nails are long
i'm the one they will question
lately got questioned few times
by some of the school teachers
then got scolded by Encik Kamal twice
1st ~ yesterday... because of the prefects hair
not only because one of them
2nd ~ today... in a very good mood to go school to take prize
out of sudden he called me
and got scolded by him cause got prefects wearing low pants
"bencilah bila aku tengok pengawas macam ni"

i know it is one of my responsibility to got scolded due to ur attitude
but when i'm telling u to change
TELLING u know
pls change la
i'm not scolding u what... but i was got scolded by teacher
don't show ur bu shuang face
or keep nagging bout this and that la
i have already got questioned and scolded on behalf of u
and this is what u show me??

*it is not referring to anyone or any cases*
*it just another feeling that i keep it since january*

27/3

2010-03-27T11:35:00.003+08:00

yeah~
hari anugerah cemerlang ended
i thought it will be longer
at least until 12 something
luckily it's end on 11
feel good to back home earlier

it was quite happy
but there are something make me frust too
i just don't know what to say bout that
prefects were order to come today
i know it is very boring for those who not recipient but have to attend
and those who taking at the earlier part but got to wait till the end
i seriously put on ur shoe and think bout urs feeling
i know it is very very boring
but as a prefect can't u giv some commitment??
this consider one of the duty of urs actually
when having benefits of being a prefect
u were smiling
but now it's ask u to attend and help
and u were complaining
it just until 11 what
and u are provided food + water
what else u want ??
besides some are complain that want to go home earlier
u thought i doesn't want to go home earlier??
u have things to do but i have it too
later on 4 i got to go back school for training
at night 9 got another training some where around my house
who is busier now??
but what to do??
this is ur job what
ur responsibility
i'm not the one who order u guys to come
teacher does it

but luckily it still end on 11
otherwise i really dont know how to face u guys when i have to take action according to the rules
sometime i just find kinda hard to take action on some prefects
who i know they are good
they have responsibilities
they can do a good job
they can giv commitment
but done something wrong
or disobeying orders

sometime i know some ppl have problems to show up or what so ever
even i have problems as well
but did u try ur best to solve that problems
and make it not affect u to do ur responsibility??
actually i don't really got angry when u can't show up
can't help
or can't give some commitment
but i feel frust and dissapointed when u guys not trying ur best to
if u tried ur best
but still u can't make it
it's ok..
it has no problem with me
cause i know u really can't
but when u din tried ur best
or keep nagging this and that
or keep spreading those negative thoughts
like it's boring to come la
it's suck to go camp la
it's wasting our time la
together don't want to go la
i seriously don't know what to say anymore
what i can do is just keep quiet
u guys r big enough to think actually
it's ur choice to decide to become a responsible human or not

*i'm not referring to anyone*
*it is just my feeling that i keep it inside since the starting of the year*

26/3

2010-03-26T21:20:00.003+08:00

it have been weeks that i din update
not in mood to... haha

my exam started this week
it is my diagnostic
then today i was informed that later
"mid year" "intervensi2" "trial" "spm"
examsss will be coming...

i was wondering
the mass media keep on encourage ppl to save the environment
dont cut tree...save paper
but why don't government cut down the exam??
maybe four exam per year??
i believe it is more than enough...

hm...it is going to be april soon
very soon indeed
hari sukan coming...
basketball competition coming too
chess as well
then May~teacher's day
wish i could held one memorable teacher's day this year
with the help of prefects
i think it is possible
anyway... tomorrow is another good day

GBU~
GBMT~

^^

14/3

2010-03-14T23:27:00.003+08:00

form five??
tired!!
no holiday!!
exhausted!!

i have so long din update my blog
someone suggested to close it
hm...
still considering
hahaha
lately really no much time to blog
homework is killing me
pressure is surrounding me

god bless me~

17/2

2010-02-17T22:54:00.001+08:00

nowadays,time sit rocket dy...
so fast man!!
it just a blink of eye...
and now already wednesday night
few days more
school reopen
homework?? got to pass up la
but now still haven started to do

congrats me! haha

really dont hope to go back school that fast...
tomorrow already thursday...
so fast!! argh... omg!

5/2

2010-02-05T22:41:00.001+08:00

kinda long din come here dy...
1st ~ lazy
2nd ~ busy
3rd ~ no ppl read
hahaha

the competition lost dy lu
kinda sad
but nvm la
at least still got one sijil wilayah

lately feel so tired in school
especially after recess
feel so sleepy
but when i back to house
doesn't feel tired pulak
weird right?? yea... very...

29/1

2010-01-29T19:41:00.002+08:00

AT LAST !!
at last all the paper work settle
at last all the formation had been taught
luckily still manage to do it today
although our time delayed by rain
but luckily the rain still stop before 5.30
thx god!

hopefully tomorrow can improve what can be improve
can perfect what have not be perfected

hopefully can win at the competition

HOPEFULLY !!!

25/1

2010-01-25T17:08:00.002+08:00

today my teacher went for meeting
she was informed that we only got to do 2 formation for the competition
happy!!!
but there are 28 teams involving in the competition
besides there are all the champion champion
1st runner up
or 2nd runner up for zone/state competition
charm!!!

omg!! feel kinda scared now!!
our teacher put high hopes on us and not only my pbsm teacher
but all teachers...
so if we lost then no eye see liao
hope we really can do it well
at least get top 5
god pls help!!

23/1

2010-01-24T10:50:00.002+08:00

my old friend came to visit me again
not very happy bout that
why?? cause my old friend name call fever
he visit me on friday night
then don't know whether lucky or unlucky
saturday got school oh

at 1st thinking of stay at home rest one
but i mana boleh ponteng
later Pn Noriah "wei wen , #@$%&!*%#$&@%#*$&$%"
but honestly,lately Pn Noriah become quite kind liao
she praised the prefects during meeting
and motivate us as well
wah wah wah
not bad not bad
haha

okok~ back to topic
so at last i decided to go school lo
as usual,morning go up the stage and do my work
then En.Kamal came
he ask me whether PBSM wanna go for the drill competition
for the whole wilayah secondary school
which fall on 1st of february

1ST OF FEBRUARY!!!

include today
we have 8 days more to train
4 formation required
no any formation trained
some of them still not good in basic
somemore this week got intervensi
hahaha

but what to do??
En.Kamal say if we want then we sure can
kinda agree also
nothing is impossible in this world~
but the time is really short
very very very short indeed
can we make it and won at least top 5??
or at least can do well during the competition??
no idea~

what to do now beside pray to god and train harder??
nothing~

hopes every things goes well

14/1

2010-01-14T20:00:00.002+08:00

today someone got to say bye bye to her sweet 16
u know who u are la hor
hahaha

btw,thx god that every things going quite ok
and i'm no longer moodless
haha

but,one more thing
next week intervensi ah!
and i din study again!
argh!!
no time to do so also
haiz...
nvm nvm
janji all pass then can liao... haha

13/1

2010-01-13T19:43:00.002+08:00

today got scolded like i killed someone
but actually i just went to do my others duty
and din went to help my prefect teacher

that make me moodless for the whole morning
until the time the basketball training start
and now
i'm really kinda speechless
don't know what to say anymore
no matter what's going on
the results will be just the same
after today
one lesson learned

~ teacher always are the one who correct,do not talk back although u have a reason ~

remember that when ur school have some cute and brilliant teacher

dreams

2010-01-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

how good is it if we can listen to what people think

at least it will save our work to guess what people want

and can achieve people expectation too

how good if i have the ability

12/1

2010-01-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

back to school again...
this year 2010 is the last year for me to go school
so far still ok i think
although have some problems
and some unhappy things happened

feel kinda down since school reopen
hoping to achieve every teacher expectation
but sometime the results is just not what we wanted to
or i should say most of the time
although tried my best
but still teacher seems like don't like it
and sometime,some people that doesn't done much work
got praised
what a nice and lovely world...

besides that
i found that the biggest challenge for a head
is to become a fair and square leader
sometime i just don't know how to reproach the prefects
especially my brothers
i know as a head
got to be fair and not to pilih kasih
but seriously,is hard for me to scold or correct some of them
sometime they just don't quite und the seriousness of the matter
but so far still quite ok~
haven fight with any friend yet
hope that wont happen in future...

today happened something too
this really make me cukup cukup sad
i met my penolong kanan co-curriculum(En Kamal) during the recess in staff room
kit ee is there as well
and F.Y.I start from this week
every prefects wajib to wear their full-U of their badan beruniform
and kit ee asked him that whether got to wear the accessory of his full-u
and he say is better to wear full
why?? cause prefects are the teladan of the students
and out of sudden En Kamal say that
pakaian ketua pengaws pun tak kemas
orang tengok pun .................... ==!
and that brilliant teacher advisor of prefects
say "betul! betul!"
i'm really speechless bout that
that time i din fold my sleeve
i just went to see my pbsm teacher-cik noraini
and got shot! yeah!
cukup cukup high man
although i did fold my sleeve in school
but it is just inside the class and it is after the pj period
if i din fold it,i will sweat again and my shirt got wet
then it will be so sticky

sometime,words really kills people
just hope to reach teacher expectation
and be a good head,a good leader
and it is sooooo difficult

28/12

2009-12-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

7 days more then got to back to school life

feelings??
~ i dont know ~

wish??
~ this 7 days can become 7 years ^^ ~

everything gonna change in 7 days time... =)

25/12

2009-12-25T19:41:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas my friends !!

that's all for today ^^

~sayonara~